"When the sand runs out..."

Well I was listening to that song by Rascal Flatts and man-o-man does it mean a whole lot to me now then ever. Well here's why...

"I'm gonna stop looking back and start moving on
Learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, without any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah, I wanna be running
When the sand runs out

Cause people do it everyday
Promise themselves they're gonna change
I've been there, but I'm changing from the inside out
That was then and this is now..."

And that's exactly what I wana do. I'm tired of trying to get the love of those that never really loved me. I'm tired of living in fear that I can't get far because I lost the one person I trusted enitrely. I'm tired of not being able to live life the way I've always wanted to live it. I'm just tired of being hurt and stressing over it.

So now from today on I'm just going to let the days go as they are planned to go. If I talk to some then I talk to some. If I say good-bye to some then it's good-bye either for just that day or for the rest of my life. I'm not going to look back anymore! I'm tired of living like that and not looking forward. So it's all gone... My past isn't my future anymore.

"I'm changing from the inside out!!!"

-JojO